Peace

This evening, albeit briefly, I experienced a calm, a settled mess, a peace. If I had any idea idea what the word meant, I might have described myself as happy. I shall reflect later on what was and what was not present, to create such a moment, but for now, on a day that could have been marred by minor illness, a gentle peace has descended upon the three inhabitants of this home. Merry Christmas, you filthy animals.

My former neighbour used to say that, usually to playfully tease me or someone else whom he saw as making a quick buck. But it does often seem to play that way. I used to have “spare money”, or so I thought. Various things have chipped into that situation such that I feel that statement is far less true now. In some ways it is good, making me turn off every light that isn’t necessary, and wearing an extra jumper rather than cranking up the heating. But I’d rather have more, obviously. One factor in my deteriorating financial situation is

Better

I woke today with a sense of “being better”, further suggesting I have been off-colour of late. Was it as a result of poor diet (very likely) or could it have been a sneaky Covid infection without the classic symptoms ? We shall never know. I’m not great, but then that’s pretty much normal for me. I did have some energy though this morning. So I felt I had to use it properly. I got the dogs out to the park where we met several of our dog friends : Tia, the dog-walker pack, Daisy and Holly, Frøya the huskie,

I feel very “manly”, if that’s a thing any more these days. Why ? Because I FIXED something. I have these things called MegaFlares. You put them on the road if you break down or have an accident, and they flash very bright LEDs to warn other drivers. They can be driven over, they float, they’re magnetic…useful thing. They’re also a luxury. So when they stop working, I don’t replace them any more. But then I had an idea… The most likely malfunction seemed to me to be that the batteries were so old they wouldn’t hold a charge any

Impulse

After dinner, I wanted something sweet but didn’t have anything but Curly Wurlies…that should be all a man needs. But it wasn’t what I wanted tonight and randomly I decided I needed to try and make some “fairy cakes”, or whatever you care to call them. That’s a lot of effort from me, particularly on a Saturday evening. Plus it keeps me from going clubbing 😂 So they went in the oven, and now they are cooling on racks. Doing this reminds me strongly of my mum, as she would bake with me as a small child and I would

It is the day after and I’ve had a few drinks. This is a recipe for a dip in emotion. However I really have had a lovely time so I cannot complain. This evening I have had a beer or two then dinner with my sister, her wife, and a good friend. That’s not bad. Plus the food was lovely, the beer went down well, and now I’m lying on a bed with cute dogs left and right. So if I let myself, I’m sure I could find some sadness, because I would like X in my life or I’m

On a Sunday I play with dogs. Lots of dogs. Mostly big, some small, all amazing. It is the closest I come to being happy and for a while I often forget to even be glum. Today was no exception. Lots of lovely dogs came along and they all played (mostly) really well, and we saw nervy dogs gaining confidence, new friends becoming better friends, and old friends thrilled at a chance to see and play with their buddies again. I like to say I “stand in the middle” of the group because I didn’t establish it, and I don’t